Baby Knows Best...

I guess I never understood babies. I really had no reason to pay close attention to them. If a friends baby cried I would simply say, "Here you go" and hand the little bundle back to Mom. For some delusional reason I believed babies laid there, cried when hungry, fussed when they had a dirty bum but otherwise were quiet and just chilled.

It's extremely embarrassing to admit but it's my truth and since becoming a Mom I've been eating handfuls of humble pie.

Things I've learned since Lillian has come into our life:

She will lay there on her blanket, happily surrounded by toys and plushed animals and scream these high pitched squeals. These squeals have nothing to do with being upset but actually the opposite, she is happy and love's hearing the noises she makes. Most of the squeals are music to my ears knowing that this sweet little bundle is happy and healthy, minus the times she chooses the 6 o'clock in the morning squeal fest.

She is way smarter then I give her credit for. Just the other day Lillian was acting fussy because she wanted her breakfast, so I sat her in her bouncer and walked away to grab her bib. The fussiness got louder until I was out of sight and she all of a sudden went quiet. As soon as I came around the corner and she noticed me, the fussiness started up quickly as she looked at me with a half smile, half frown. Very tricky Lillian, very tricky! I'm on to you little one.

You cannot prepare for what type of Mother you'll become. All my plans have gone out the window, along with the stupid baby books and the advice from other mother's, grandmothers, or even women without children who "try" to be helpful but who you wish would just shut the fridge door.

Others will say, "We'll babies just don't cry for no reason," yes, yes they definitely do!

I fell madly and deeply in love and my life is forever changed because of it. Her sweet little smile and precious little giggles is the only thing keeping me from bashing my head off the wall when she chooses to have a "moment." I would throw myself in front of a bus before that little baby girl ever feels pain or knows upset. I regularly feel I am failing as a mother because I have to walk away when she decides to take a fit or when I secretly want 20 minutes of me time during the day and just wish she would take a nap already.

Babies know best and will always tell you what they need. It's amazing how their personality shines through at such a young age. Looking back to when she was a little bean in my belly it becomes perfectly clear that those kicks and punches were her way of giving me her opinion or a piece of her mind ;)